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X_countryguy's Journal  I got a job! I'm hired as a manager for the Friendly's in Oswego! Hooray! Now I just have to finish my music history studying. Current mood:  accomplished.
Job listing from craigslist.org: Dont need experience..Actually prefer none or just a little ( no bad habits) You will learn the business from ground up. Starting with pressure washing, scrapping, sanding, caulking and priming. Must have transportation and license. Prefer non smoker due to no smoking policy onsite of projects. But if you can go 2-3 hrs without one and not get pisssy..its ok. Must have some strenght and cordination..(To carry 32 feet ladders) Starting pay is 7-9 dollars and goes up as fast as you learn. Pay will go up as high as $14.00 hr. A good work ethic is needed..no laxy or slackers need to apply. All you need is white shorts or pants ..We supply everything else. My thought up response: i m have strenght enuf 2 carry 32 feet ladders. im no laxy or pisssy at al! its ok! Current mood:  amused?.
I sell Avon now. www.youravon.com/adeerkop Please support me. This is my second job. :D Well here I am. I feel like I have nothing better to do with myself than to post something self serving on my LJ. I think I've more or less failed out of school. That means at the end of the summer I'm out of a job. Time to look for something that pays minimum wage that I can do full time. The stress of everything that I let get to me means that I can't come back to school next year. I failed my music history course too much but with everything going on this semester I couldn't even attend class. I had an anxiety attack practically every lecture. I might be able to do an independent study this semester to make up for it but I talked to my professor about it and I don't think she has the time for me. Makes sense, I didn't make the time for the class. I should have gotten out a long time ago. I think it's time for me to distance myself from this school and all its activities. I've decided not to participate in any STG function save for NYSH since I promised I'd help ST the game even though it's against my better judgement. Honestly I think I'm a bad ST and I don't have anything to offer the game, especially since I can't seem to stay awake that late. It was a stupid idea to think that I could participate. I don't want to spend time with the club. When I broke up with Rachel I knew I disappointed the entire club and I hate myself for it. I can't look any of them in the eye anymore and, besides, what am I now? I'm one of the old guys. 24 years old, single, fat, awkward. I'm the type of person that fills in the stereotypes that the club is trying to dispel. People just get angry when I try to participate. I 'browbeat' people, I'm a 'control freak'. I probably make the girls nervous by being around. I don't care. I can't care. I just finished removing all the photos I ever had tagged of me on Facebook. God, I looked so ugly. Still do. I also see myself in a bunch of situations that I don't want to remember. Time I spent with the DDR club, stupid pirate costumes at Halloween dances. Seeing my guy spill over my pants at NYSH. Seeing my wedding photos... Trash. All of it. I don't belong in any of those places. I screwed up the right to have ever existed in them. I have no marketable skills. I have no interests anymore. I don't really have a past. I don't have much of a family and nobody that I really trust as a friend. I'm floating out here without a cause or purpose. I'm only capable of doing easy jobs because I'm too lazy to go on to bigger things. I think I chose to stay in Oswego not to do the one thing that I still find fun, (Novitas, but I think that once I have a failure in that at some point I'll quit that, too), but because it's where I ended up. There is no room or money to explore here. This town doesn't have much to offer and I don't have anything to offer it. Sounds picture perfect. Match made in Heaven. I think I'll start applying for all the fast food places soon. Availability starts at the end of August. So I'm sorry that I disappointed all of you. I don't have much of myself to disappoint. I'm not going to make this post private. I've shut out quite a few people from this journal on purpose because I didn't want them to know I existed. I'm too ashamed to go on still being with people. I want everyone to read this to see how pathetic I've become and to go away knowing that I should be left alone. I remember that about a year and a half ago I posted up everything I ate throughout the day in attempt to track my food intake. I should start doing that again. I felt myself fail a Fortitude save last night. Now I have a fever and I ache like hell... Today is a good day for Beatles music. So, yeah. Looks like my posting streak ended shortly after Novitas. I've been getting into a habit of being too tired and feeling the need to be entertained too much to bother doing anything else. I'm gaining weight, I'm sure since I've stopped doing exercises in the morning. I haven't felt like it. I wake up and feel like crap. I can never get my blood pumping in the morning. I haven't wanted to do my homework if it requires more than five minutes attention. That means no reading, no studying, just a quick, last minute dash to do homework in subjects that I already know what to do. Pretty much the only thing I've kept up with is my piano but that's because it's a new project and I'm getting a lot done which inspires me to do more. I'm afraid that once that starts getting hard I won't practice as much. I need to actually go to karate all three times this week, and not just once. I feel tired thinking about all the things I need to do. I just wish I could think about one thing at once and actually want to do it. Current mood:  tired.
Posting this since I got to work early due to a pick up of convenience. This past week and a half since Novitas has been very busy and productive. Novitas was great, first off, though my headaches continue from going there. I finished figuring out what I want to play at my seminar though I need to arrange a few more pieces. I got to me an awesome VG Remixer, Mazedude, though an amazing series of coincidences. I have successfully managed to not drive STG into the ground, and I will start doing homework soon. Heh. Karate is keeping me active since I'm having a hard time doing exercises in the morning. My arms crave more push ups though. Oh, I got contacts too. Follow up appointment on Thursday. Battery is dying, time for work. Current mood: accomplished.
Here I am on about five hours of sleep trying to keep my posting streak alive. Let's watch this unfold! The first STG meeting of the semester was yesterday and holy crap was it awesome. Including the E-board (and the SA President), we got over 50 people signed in to the meeting. I haven't actually gone over the full count but I'm going to see how many people that signed also signed up at the Involvement Fair. Considering that there were about a dozen new faces, I think we were doing pretty good. The chalking helped, too. I'm already a little behind on homework right now due to Novitas. Life has been crazy chaotic. Packages everywhere. I added up all the money I spent on Novitas between stuff for me and Rachel and it's been upwards of $2,000+. It all kinda snuck up on me, but I think it will be worth it. I'm proud of the costume and that's really the base argument. (Getting enough XP to boost me to level 27 doesn't hurt either. Rachel right now is finishing up the tabards I'm going to be selling in game. She's completed sewing the second one (of five) and it's benefiting from experience above the last one. I think these will turn out great. All right, time for me to finish getting ready for work/school. I need to shave in a bad way but I may just save that for after Spanish class. Here's hoping that I don't pass out at some point. Current mood:  sleepy.
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